Death Inevitable!

Death As Inevitable As It Could Be and So is Time! None Can be or Should be Ignored!

Im Trying to Fight Both, there is this feeling of Screeching Pain beneath, No! Im Not Fighting AIDS... but yeah Acquired Immuno Deficiency against Emotional Matters for sure!

Not Had a Break Off With a Boyfriend but i guess im breaking off with so manythings that gave me so much in my life. Life such a Big Word There, Yes I Know i have not lived it or known it to the fullest as yet but how much ever have i got the chance to know it, is what i m talking about! People say i think a lot and should let go, i fail to un-notice some issues in my life, yes i do get emotional about the different emotions, Is That Wrong?!?!

Changes, wherever whenever... upset me, upset me to the core! Accepting this hard and difficult fact of life is painful. Change, it means the death of the previous situation and a new one arising of the same... Cause and Effect, effect becomes the cause of the effect which follows after and it goes on.

People showing the Certanity of never leaving or being apart, saying that this is going to last forever, itself becomes Uncertain! If these words of assurance, being there forever are going to change for the better (is what they say) then i dont want to Buy It.

M I sounding Selfish, well fine i accept thats the way I am.. Selfish! Selfish about feeling sad and upset about things which these people were giving me from a long time and now excusing themselves from the same. I am selfish for asking questions about the death of the feeling that they used to have for me.

Well Its High Time Now... I think, its time that i should Change myself, so that i can have a broder understanding of people, their space and their changing priorities. I will have to suffer the death of this characteristic that i had in me To Not Let Go. This situation is inevitable and so is the death!

So Long, and Thanks for All the Fish!!!

Friend

Friend

When you are sad and look for a shoulder to lean on,

If life, you think, has been unfair to you,

And luck never the side you are on,

When pity is all you expect of me;

Then, my friend, I am not the one you can count upon.

For I know, as your friend, you need no arms to cry in

I'd rather you learn how to swim

Than have you think I will always be around

Don't they say for good reason, 'Only rough seas make good sailors?'

I only think, that way, I will be able to love you more.

And no, I don't care if this didn't rhyme or chime

I, seriously, give a damn.

Copyrights are taken by me, this poem is from someone i know... nope these are not my thoughts though, i do agree that friends are not there just to be around to support but to help you go through the problems.

Clicks At Aksa

The World Upside Down!

Two Faced!

The Jellyfish?!?! (Aksa Beach)

Coffee Bean Sun!

Dedication To Sajesh!

When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we'll see
No I won't be afraid, no I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand, stand by me

And darlin', darlin', stand by me, oh now now stand by me
Stand by me, stand by me

If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
And the mountains should crumble to the sea
I won't cry, I won't cry, no I won't shed a tear
Just as long as you stand, stand by me

And darlin', darlin', stand by me, oh stand by me
Stand by me, stand by me, stand by me-e, yeah

Whenever you're in trouble won't you stand by me, oh now now stand by me
Oh stand by me, stand by me, stand by me

Darlin', darlin', stand by me-e, stand by me
Oh stand by me, stand by me, stand by me

Ben E. King - Stand by Me

I Believe!

Feelings Not Best Expressed By Words!

inspired by K

It Was Just a Testimonial!

Words it is again, words which we write as testimonials to people we love. A written statement about a persons behaviour, actions and importance in your life and otherways. Im a member of this site rather part of this online/virtual society. Here people can write testimonials to other person whom they value! If you dont like the testimonial or have other Reasons for not accepting it you can always deny the testimonial from being displayed to the public! Once you have ACCEPTED the testimonial, yes ACCEPTED the Damn thing why then back off, why then delete it??? twice has this happened... two of my beloved people have deleted my testimonials to them.

My Brother! deleted the testimonial because he didnt want other people to make assumptions based on our (two sisters that he has) testimonials so he deleted them... Why didnt you think that before accepting them!

And Mr. Sajesh wanted his profile CLEAN!!! what the heck is that.. what kind of a reason is that to give! I was upset by this reason so he goes on to Say It Was Just A Testimonial!!!

So Guys I Feel Hurt Alright! A Feeling that i had put into Words and made the Effort to convey was deleted without my concent... Argh!!!

Rishtey!

(this poem is by My Buddy Pankaj and Myself)

mujhe nahi rakhna kisi bandhan mien
kisi bhi rishte ko
Udne do unhe
jaane do unhe jis disha jis jagah
janaa chahate hai vo..

hum hai kaun jo punchche....
hum hai kaun jo bandhe
inhe aapni kisi dor se
aakhir hum bhi kissi dor me bandhe hai...
hum hai kaun kisi aur ko apne dor me bandhne wale...
vohi log jo apne hi kisi dor me bandhe hai!

Thought Of the Day!

Perceptions Part of the Truth and Not the Whole

By Tanvi Oza

… Lived like a Princess

My Sister lived like a Princess in our Home (now she is married). She has always got what she wanted to have and be. Nothing has ever come in her way and even if it has, she has removed it with her skills and her talent. Actually she is Stubborn ;-) is what I meant to say :-P, hehehe. She Likes to cook, but after working and cooking for like 15 people, she wont have the food she cooked (Cannot get the logic I don’t cook :-D). She Loves to SHOP! (Yes have to put an exclamation it’s that important for her). Like daddy has rightly put she has ‘momentary temper’ which she needs to control, rest… talk about her intelligence, her way to tackle problems, people, situations is just right after all she is a Human Resource Manager. She is a Total Workaholic and a Carrier Oriented girl. Doesn’t like to be around unwanted Relatives/Friends/People, Man it Bugs her or what?!? She gets so horrified by horror movies, that she needs to sleep with mom and dad for like two months.

Daddy (when she is in a playful mood), Dadda (when she wants dad to agree to something or give permission), Pappa (when it’s her mistake). Their Relationship is Fantastic! I Adore them when they talk and discuss about different issues in each others life. Daddy has this, ‘had been there done that attitude’, all over the discussion/argument, Sister thinks it is a ‘generation gap’. He is an ideal Dad, working so hard just to see his daughters happy and getting married lavishly. Daddy has given her all the love, care, attention, protection, security that a dad can give and will maintain!!!

Mummy/Ma is what she calls mom. She doesn’t have to think when it comes to mom; think about anger, mistake, permission… Mom Has to Agree To It! Now here is the catch, Mom just has to nod her head in front of her and then tell daddy what she thinks is the best… hmm yeah right then the decision is made!!! (Cunning cunning mom, she does that to me tooL). Mom is what she is dependent on totally from her morning coffee to her dinner and the glass of water that she has while going to bed (mom has spoilt her habits actually). Mom supported her in every good thing she has done even if that needs to oppose my father. Mom a Women of Substance and this quality has rightly been inherited by my Sister.

My Relationship with Her… well she was four when I opened my eyes into this world. I have grown up by wearing her clothes, using and destroying :-D her toys… well till a certain age… now it’s the opposite. Yes I’m Taller and well Stronger… ok… ok Fatter than she is. We have played together, played all the weird things… man were we adventurous… well beyond that. We have enjoyed watching cricket, we have Danced, Sung, laughed, fought, cried and most of all loved each other a lot. We used to fight like Cats and Dogs (Im the Dog here, she likes cats) both of us have been trained under Shoutoukan style of Karate, even mom used to think twice when coming between us (now we don’t fight like that, just a cold war). I have never felt or rather she never made me feel that I was younger to her. She has always taken care of me and has always protected me by making me understand what is right and wrong. Hmmm that’s what I loved the most she used to make me understand and not force me to do something.

Her Marriage, one side we were happy that she was going to step into Sansara with a man she knew from 10 years. Other side we were going to feel this emptiness in our Home, our Space and our Family. People say this to me, that she is just 15 mins away from my place. But what about her being away from the everyday laughs, fights, discussions, talks… The Routine… she won’t be there now. At the time of Bidaai we were taking her to my dad, my emotional gate was still closed. When I saw the pain and tears in my dads’ eyes I was not able to control myself, just that one look on my daddies face had shuddered me. I will never ever forget that moment in my life when my sister embraced daddy saying she doesn’t want to leave him (I don’t know what was, what emotions must have roused at that moment… man I don’t even want to know). After that we had hold her so close that we wouldn’t have let her go, and then grooms mother stepped in taking her away from us.

Happy Birthday Dharaa

“My

dear

dearer

dearest

Sister.

Man now that you are going, I want to let you know how much I love you…. I’m going to miss you so much. Miss all the crazy things that we used to do together. The Way you used to imaginarily make me eat all the delicacies in the magazines. How we used to shake the whole building with our thunderous claps and cheers for the Indian Team. How you used to feel bad about the losing team, especially when the team has lost to the Indians. I’m going to miss the food that you used to cook for us. You are an Amazing Cook!

Who is going to stand for me when daddy will bully me and when I’m Crying, loud near the window, who is gonna to come to me to make me understand (I don’t cry that loud now). Man M I going to miss you or what.

But I also know that you are always going to be there to support me through my ups and downs all my life, No Matter What! Damn This Marriage… I don’t want to let you Go!

I Really Love You!

I wish you all the success and Prosperity in whatever you do and where ever you Go! As you start this new life of yours may god bless and shower happiness on your way.

Love and Regards

Yours Little Trouble.”

This was what I had written to my sister on her birthday 23rd January 2007 also her Engagement. She got married on 25th January 2007. I Am Going to Miss her a Lot!
(One more blog will be dedicated to her)

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